Journal—January 2008
Faith & Doubt, Part I—Slogging Away

I’m at a tricky phase just now.

Actually, the tricky part is to see it as a phase (which I’m almost certain it is, I’ve been down this road before) and not to cast it as the first step in a long, eternally descending spiral into the abyss.

Basically, I’m full of doubt.  

Can I do this?  The answer springs readily to mind, and its general tone is negative.

Can I do this?  Can I finish the book under contract, of which I now have only seven chapters? The chorus of listeners in my mind look meaningfully at one another, confer in lowered voices, and push forward a spokesman—a reedy looking youth with pimples—to speak their verdict. Which is unanimous, and flatly emphatic: “We doubt it." more >